Becoming the identity that is truly authentic to you.

Something has shifted, there will come a period of time in your life where you look back and realize.. that this is where it all changed.

Yourself, your opinion of the world, what no longer fools you, and what inauthenticities you can no longer tolerate.

What made you feel collapsed 2 weeks ago, is starting to move into a bigger picture now.

All of a sudden, you are connecting with the right sorts of people.

An authentic and unexpected community is appearing, and in this, you feel you have the space to shine bright and make a real difference in.

No longer does feeling special for no cause appeal to you. There is an underlying feeling that none of this is worth it without a collective future vision.

You are feeling bold, expressive, and more confident than normal this past week — and today, you finally feel you can be both confident and weird at the same time.

What does feel hard is the nervous system. It is like, you long for the days that felt simpler, easier, and less over stimulated through technology — yet, you are being forced by the Saturnian energy to work through it anyways. You feel like it is hard to get everything organized, because everything is speeding up so quickly that sometimes it feels like there isn’t enough in the day.

But underneath all this, you know that you have to just trust the journey. That something bigger than yourself is telling you to keep putting in the effort with enthusiasm, and to find yourself through your creative gifts.

The collective power feels enormous at this time. With the North Node now in Aquarius, where the power was losing, is now back to gaining traction.

Today we feel how much power we have as a collective. We feel it in the deepest parts of our being. Not only to ourselves, but our entire lineage. Something big is brewing within the collective today, and that little stir, that feeling that we are connecting to something much bigger than ourselves, that is the start of this new age revolution.

We deeply feel, that society is never going to look the same again. And we are being shown today, where our creative gifts are to move it in the direction of the collective good.

Tarot Card

Reversed Queen of Cups (Thoth Deck)

Interesting..I like a curve bell card.

What is interesting about this card, is that its inverted in the water. As above so below. There are two lotus symbols floating on the water, however, upside down you would be looking up at them.

Reversed Queen of Cups talks about illusions and being trapped in old emotions that are preventing you from growing. However, we are in a very changing time that seems to be more positive. Perhaps this detached energy of the full moon in Aquarius, will bring the emotional detachment to see the illusions for what they are and move past them.

I feel this could signal to not get lost in the collective seas of emotion, but to first, make sure you understand and know who you are. This card is full of symbolics of reflection through the emotional sacred waters.

There is also an element to let go of the past trauma, something I have been thinking a lot about lately is how we need to fully grieve what happened to the collective in 2020. And that in order for us to move forward and understand who we are now, we have to let go of that old narrative about ourselves.

It is interesting that she holds a sacred vessel in many versions of this card, as the Aquarian symbol is that of the water bearer. The one who must carry the sacred vessel of the unconscious collective emotions and pour it into the stream of consciousness. This queen has a lid on the vessel, which keeps the subconscious feelings contained. With the card being upside down, to me that symbolizes it is time to open our subconscious and pour it out.

In a way this is sort of happening on a macro scale with Pluto being in Aquarius. It is awakening the masses out of their unconscious slumber of emotional illusions and making people want to do something about it.

Eli Tarot, an amazing website source for analyzing the thoth tarot decks, talks a lot about the Queen of Cups as “Above all things, know thyself”. She writes “Thus, the Queen of Cups reflects not only the unconscious of the querent but also the cosmic understanding of the Self. She is the mirror in which the Soul comes to recognize its own beauty. In Hermetic terms, this is Binah’s function as the Sanctifying Intelligence: to consecrate raw consciousness into form through the vessel of compassion, reflection, and understanding.” It is interesting as we are on the Aquarius/Leo axis, that we are being guided to really make sure we understand ourselves through our emotional waters too. In order for us to fully understand our creative gifts and ego, we must also make sure to venture into our deep waters. Perhaps, so we are not acting from a place of pure ego, but also from a place of a fully formed self (shadow and all).

Eli Tarot writes this on the Queen of Cups: “At the same time, the card points to your own tendency to place too much weight on privacy. While solitude has its gifts, this Queen reminds you that healing happens in communion. To withdraw entirely is to deny yourself the blessing of connection. Open your circle to trusted companions who elevate you, who see your value, and who make you feel good in your own skin. True guardianship of the heart means guarding against isolation as well.” –> what better full moon to surround yourself with others then on the Aquarius full moon.

Intuitively, I feel because Mercury is still in Cancer and we are still in post retrograde shadow period, that this full moon is asking us to share and fully release those emotions that got stirred up during that process — but with our community. Rather than isolate to understand our emotions, to share it together in true Aquarian fashion, as we are likely all feeling similar emotions in the times we are in.

We also must take into consideration that Pluto is conjunct this full moon. Pluto is the ancestral rage and emotions that get carried through generations, so old trauma is wanting to come to the surface to be cleared with community today.

Questions:

What emotions am I hoarding in my closed cup that actually need to be poured out, cleared, and shared to help heal my community?

What has shifted in the past week beneath my feet that I am starting to see and feel a bit more clearly now?

What is the ideal community that I want to call into this next chapter? Who do I feel most authentic around? Where do I feel I can express my authentic creativity and true self?

In what direction do I see the collective moving into? How can I use my own creative gifts to help support that direction?